Sunday, January 27, 2013

Over the Shoulder (The left one this time!!)

Honestly, this has been the best 7 months of my life.....
The girls came to me from some pretty awful circumstances and we are in month 7 of Team Mofu Version 2.0. This shot of us at Justin Bieber last month shows not happiness but pure JOY on the face I my two brides. I don't know if I give them everything they want and need, but I'm trying hard.
It's been interesting to be alone. I've been able to look at my objectively and see if and where I need to make changes to myself. I realize that I do and hope that I can make the changes I need. What scares me the most at starting over with changes circumstances in the home is being penalized for being 37 and for having two children. Who in their right mind will want that? Sometime soon I will have to realize that this can and will be a constraint if and when I pursue relationships. This isn't a bad thing, this means that I'm look inward and constantly developing- I'm no longer in stasis.
Professionally, I've learned that I'm ok retiring out of here and contributing to local and state government. If the Public Policy stuff works out, then I'll move to DC. But I'm looking at retiring in 5 years and it feels pretty nice.

Nite- originally posted in February...

I want to retire out if here, but The Lord has something new for us in Provo this fall. Leaving here is going to be hard; the memories, friends, and relationship I made here were incredible to learn and grow from. I do not want the day we leave on a train to come quickly. It's going to be a painful day.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

sightings

This is a stop I couldn't help making when running to run stadium steps at Harvard or go for a run to MIT. The night time was the best because it reminded me of home... Yes, Boston isn't Los Angeles, but this is the closest thing I had to the jewelry box view I have of the Los Angeles from my father's home.

I'd often stop when interval training or simple getting oxygen into the lungs while the cars on the bridge bumped over the decades worth of concrete and steel.

Below your feet are rail road tracks, and below the tracks is water where crews from rowing clubs cut gently through the water. At times planes pass over head. Its been rumored that this is one of a few places in the world where a train, plane, automobile, and boat will intersect each other. Random, but interesting factoid.

I miss Boston, its been more than a decade and I need to get back.

Postrate

Since I've been a kid, I've always been told that prayers are the way to solve things in life. This morning I prayed on my knees by myself and with earnest- all is well. All is well.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

A Change In Me

I've always been a big fan of "ripping the band-aid off" to end things and  move on.

Can't seem to do it this time around.

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Solace

Off to Raleigh today for a Church event.
Lots to think about.
Plenty of decisions to make.

Building


Post Crossfit Games, I asked the girls if they would be interested in working out at Crossfit Kids in town. It was a silly question since R was running around and doing push-ups like the ladies who were on TV. They obliged and have been working on their functional fitness ever since.
I’m hoping that I didn't push them into anything- my goal isn't necessarily to make sure they are stud athletes. The goal is to see life patters- life will be hard but you can work through it, finish everything you start, and you can do things that you never thought were possible. 
My fear is that I potentially could be raising women whose goal in life is to marry a man and not continue to grow. They need to have their own traits and be there own person before they go to the altar with their eternal companion. Hopefully with the small things that I introduce them to, they’ll be the well rounded women they need to be.